They'll keep us apart, they won't stop breaking us down
Biography (^00^)
My name is Suhui, have a nicknamed called porkysu. simply because i like pigs and i think this name rhymes well. if u do not talk to me, you will think im cool and quiet. okie, but in fact im super chatty like a chatterbox and i love to laugh. my friends say i have a "auntie" behaviour! haha.. thats rather subjective. but anyway, im a great-listener other than a a chatter box! i love many cool stuffs and my defination of cool is a subset of unique. hahax!
B'dae: 30th Nov, sagattarius!
New Year Resolutions: To improve my CAPs but at the same time FYP! ^^
been back from batam quite a while and... this jap drama has occupied me for days. titled, " JIN". it has many nice quotes and one of them is as such: " how i wish i could become a snow, so that i could lie on your shoulder anytime." simple words and it could project out all feelings!
not forgetting the theme songs accompanying it.
♥ i fell in love with u unknowingly... 3:29 PM
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
im not really fond of books.... but i guess reading some other peoples' work is definetly beneficial to own knowledge, your attitude and sometimes it may even bring u to reflect upon your own thoughts. hmmm.. just passed by a blog, and i realised.... she has what i felt.... however, previously i only concentrate on the minor stuffs that trigger my emotions. but not at a bigger picture. i was probably too niave and simple thinking... now i know what it is to be a good reflection. a good reflection is not sth that describes the entire situation and how it trigger ur emotions, but is what u learn from it. probably i still did mention somehow, but i was paying more attention on the situation. that was really a lesson learnt.
♥ i fell in love with u unknowingly... 11:24 PM
Monday, December 21, 2009
after weeks of attachment, im crazy over shopping!! going everywhere also can shop... after my entire day of shopping on sat which cost me total of 104 bucks, i continue to shop till now... even at school today. must be wondering in school what can i shop right? its shocking k! i spent almost 50 bucks in the school co-op for a pullover and a shirt. damn disgusiting looking at the way i spent my $$$!!!! no income but money kept flowing out like water... im predicting that im gonna spent at least 150 bucks more.... and im still going to batam this week! argh!!! BROKE!!! ok, just whining how poor im getting and also reflect on my spending, but i just couldnt help it =x have to start saving and earn back my min bank amount when school starts... must do some financial planning!!!
other than going to school to hand in the stupid reflections, had my lunch with mushroom at engin and ate my fav tao hui... yummy! then wanted to explore the school... but we were stuck at the co-op for almost an hr.... thats ladies! hahahaha... okie, then i found out something that i never see before anywhere... " A nude slipper" - slipper with nothing attached to it, only the base of the slipper... cool right!!!! so much wanted, but think of my pocket plus i dont think i will want to bear the risk. in case, one day if the base cant work anymore then i have to go barefoot....
okie, i met caveman today coincidentally... loll.... i realised sth... could attachment changed caveman personality to become more socialise? hahaha... initially i thot i could be dreaming... how could caveman not be a caveman! lol...
♥ i fell in love with u unknowingly... 11:04 PM
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
i dont think i have done right after much thoughts.
but i dont feel guilty.
its just that flashes keep on popping on my head...
i wondered could i have handled it better?
i just wondered, how should i deal it if i am given a 2nd chance.
if its others, what would they do?
i need an advice...
♥ i fell in love with u unknowingly... 7:22 PM
Thursday, December 10, 2009
today is the 4th day of attachment and is my first day of afternoon shift. i kinda enjoy afternoon shift more than morning shift. probably because im a nocturnal person, am more awake and alert in the afternoon and night. it allows me to be more hyperactive and can carry out my practices better. finally first day, inflicting no harm to anyone! i begin to like my patients (= some are damn funny... especially many of them are elderly and their behavior and mentality are kinda like a 2nd childhood, they are damn cute =p today began to apply a thicker face mask, hence had more communication with the nurses. and also become more daring in speaking up what i want. overall, i began to enjoy =D
♥ i fell in love with u unknowingly... 10:43 PM
i just finish my reflections. but i took a long time to finish because it is not going in a smooth flow of thoughts. it should be right? but im too occupied in answering the guided questions. sigh~ its actually one of the difficult reflections to write about in my entire life. i also dont know why. its only the third day, and i dont think im enjoying it at all... i just felt drained. everyday a facade smile. and have to put on a thick layer of skin to beg for signatures. just cant wait for this to end.... actually some thoughts passed my mind but i know i shouldnt be thinking this way. im beginning to think if im really suitable for it. sigh~ i hope i will do better in the 2nd week such that i can convinced myself to carry on. i need a motivation which can push me to wake up at 6 am everyday, to survive the 2 weeks...
anyway, my back is feeling much better today but my leg is aching like shit. must continue with good body mechanics even during sleeping.
oh yeah, i had a scary dream last night. i dreamt that my results are out and i got horrible result till its unbelivable.. but its so true.. i dreamt i gotten my GPA score of 2.9/5 ! i hope this is not true... or else im really gonna breakdown....
ok, thats all for today... need to work out my objectives and im off to sleep =D
♥ i fell in love with u unknowingly... 12:48 AM
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
2nd day of attachment. get up with a body ache, esp. my LUMBAR area. now i cannt bend... anything really must use body mechanics now! =( but anyway, today was definetly a better day than yesterday! because i learnt much more things, had more hands on. 1. showering. - a time to scan for presure areas 2. feeding 3. parameters 4. changing diapers 5. changing linen 6. draining of urine bag. 7. record
and especially, APIE in real case scenario which taught and analysed with me by sis. really grateful to her, despite i broke out into cold sweats and the qns being asked is worst than contemp exam. phew! because it really gives me the believe in how to apply and hence bringing out its importance. she woke up my niave-tivity.
all these may sound and seemed easy. but i tell u its not. all ur arts, sci, ethical, personal knowing have to come in inorder to do them well!
ok, i really need to sleep early tonight to wake up early tml. argh! hate rushing, luckily i dont have to depend on bus. if not i will really have to pay back 2 hrs. =/ to have sufficient back rest and for me to open my eyes big and wide to listen to report. argh... no wonder i got a feeling of being asked.
♥ i fell in love with u unknowingly... 5:58 PM
Monday, December 07, 2009
First day at work! more observation that doing. but i did sth. despite knowing the skills, coming to clinical practicum is different. a real scenario this time, it adds on to the tense that u have to do it one time and no wrong. but it seriously differ alot alot alot... my mind seem unable to connect the skills we learnt in lab and in real scenario, despite the things we do are the same. ok, and i know i seriously have to put in effort to work out my objectives and plan what i must do before each day starts, or else no signature =( esp the recording work adds on to the already stress working environment. just one day, im tired... =( ahh! ok, im just whining... i have 9 days more to go... if i continue to whine, it wont do me good... it will just make me feel each day is a misery! so.. im gonna stop! stop whining!!!
reflection:
i need to be more proactive in asking if i can do the things myself.
need to have more confidence that i can do it. I KNOW IT!
need to "love to interact more
oh yeah! i think i need to be more alert man =x
lastly, before everything, i must plan my objectives!!!
♥ i fell in love with u unknowingly... 8:45 PM
Sunday, December 06, 2009
ahhhh!!! tml is already attachment, im still in a very holiday and slacky mood... not mentally prepared at all. still unsure of many things. i assumed that we have to have our own objectives, but till now i dont know what i want out of this attachement. to make sure i get to explore and have a hands-on on my skills i learnt. hmm.. probabaly, but i just dislike it when whatever skills we do we have to record them down.... its a hassle! i think im troubled with the troublesome admin work =/ grrrr.... someone pls guide me along....
♥ i fell in love with u unknowingly... 9:18 PM
Saturday, December 05, 2009
omgoodness! its like going to 4am! and im still not sleeping... just had tea and finish all my housework. YES! indeed, doing housework in the middle of the night. im indeed a crazy, weirdo hur... had a fun day with mushroom today! we had such a wonderful, satisfying lunch, watched a fantastic movie and enjoyed shopping!!!! lol... and today is totally hilarious! im behaving like an auntie and mushroom has to keep laughing! i got everything with discounts (i have my means!!!).... and i spent 1 hr plus at a bata shop to select cheap and comfy shoes. plus happily adgitating an impatient, rude old auntie who supposed to serve us! yeah, and i state " supposed", because she totally had no patience and she gave up serving us! but she came a few times to us if we made our decisions... hahahah!!!! its my first time going shopping feeling so happy and not feeling tired at all!!!! thanks eh, mushroom!!! ahahaha..... and lastly we had supper cum dinner after the movie! when i got home, im so occupied with housework and finally i can sit down to blog... im so hyper during the day that i cant sleep now!!! oh dear.... its gonna daylight soon before i could realise. i love the sky when its dark, i hate when sunrise. probably because nth for me to look forward to. ok, thats a 3 sec random stuff! lol...gonna make myself sleep... and so goodnight!!!!
and.... sometimes i would love to look at my own actions! because mushroom cant forget how i react to the chocolates! damn auntie??? hhahahaha!!!!
♥ i fell in love with u unknowingly... 3:57 AM
Thursday, December 03, 2009
i am just such funny person. during exams, i would just want to go out. when exams are over, i dont feel like going anywhere but stay at home. today, did not go out with my uni clique for shopping. i just dont feel like it. so i stayed at home... leading a much slower pace of life. where i woke up late as usual at around 1.30pm, slack around to look at magazines, cook maggie mee for lunch (sudd had a craving for it), despite my mum has cooked. then started off doing room cleaning. pack the stack of books on my table, finally change my bed sheets which hasnt been changed for months. mop the floor, cleared the messy and entangled wires, any finally everything is so neat and spacious. felt so happy and have a sense of satisfaction. really a 仔女！ my sis asked me about what i did today and so i told her. she said, " NO LIFE!"....lol... but i just have no mood to go out. probably i need to work out a wishing list soon to have an aim to go for shopping. just didnt like walking around aimlessly. im so different from other females. lol.. sometimes im wondering do i have more male hormones than female hormones. because i dont really seem to be interested in what females like to do... i prefer more male kind of activities. oops=x thats bad hur.... but i just like it!
♥ i fell in love with u unknowingly... 6:33 PM
I Hate you!
You entered and i had to entertain you but you didnt respond.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
3:29 PM