Biography (^00^)

My name is Suhui, have a nicknamed called porkysu. simply because i like pigs and i think this name rhymes well. if u do not talk to me, you will think im cool and quiet. okie, but in fact im super chatty like a chatterbox and i love to laugh. my friends say i have a "auntie" behaviour! haha.. thats rather subjective. but anyway, im a great-listener other than a a chatter box! i love many cool stuffs and my defination of cool is a subset of unique. hahax!

B'dae: 30th Nov, sagattarius!

New Year Resolutions: To improve my CAPs but at the same time FYP! ^^

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♥ My Piglets ♥

Bao Ru

Celeste

Cha Yee

Huda

Jie Vee

Lina

Mahmudah

Marilyn

Mrs M

Mushroom

Victor

Xia Xue

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Monday, March 30, 2009

sometimes i reflected...
why am i always harbouring on thoughts and hopes that are simply impossible?
hmmm.. sometimes im questioning myself...
what do i really like?
challenges?
excitement?
process?
admiring?
or purely just liking?...
hmmm...
anyway currently...
im hoping for a miracle....
im determined to go for it!...
but if it really meant just and really just for memories,
i will let natural comes its way but will keep it very sweet and be remembered always in my heart at the same time....
but seriously thinking about it.. chances are close to 0.0000001%....
lifestyles are totally diff.... what a joke =/

oh ya! and i found out sth...
why do i get fever and sorethroat which is RARE for me...
hmmm...i guess it was the massage i went a few days ago..
they must have pressed some acupoints too hard on my cotton foot...
this was substantied by my cousin... she too went for a massage and have the same sickness as me... she still has fever for 3 days...
glad she's okay now..
i think our body have lots of toxic i guess...
the foot massage forced them all out =x

Sunday, March 29, 2009

ahh!!! how i wish i can yell now!!!!
but my voice is totally gone now =(
now i understand the feeling...
sorry sis...i've repented...
but...
i will still be going for sentosa later in 2 hrs time.
and more photos will be uploaded!
haha..
reminded me of one the game for the sentosa trip.
lol...
argh! wish myself recover soon...
i wont want to carry this flu to taiwan!!!.....

Friday, March 27, 2009

now is 1.o5am, coughing away now.
my throat is feeling damn super itchy...
argh! i think am getting sick.
just finish recaping some ncdcc stuffs for tml lesson to teach the cadets.
argh! basically i forgt everything since i lost touch with everything like for 8 mths!
tml gonna teach camp craft ( was my lousiest).
but it should be easier with dome tent.

ok, today went east coast with steffi.
had alot of fun!
since we haven kept in contact ever since we gotten our results.
hahah! there will be lots of photos!
we chat non-stop even cycling...
then cycle to changi but didnt manage to cycle to changi village since our bicycle time is limited.
hahah.. anyway in the end we exceeded for 2 hrs.
(dont get it wrong that we cycle so slow arh)...keke =)
its because we spent lots of time taking photos and enjoying the sceneries..hahaha..
hope to come again next time again!
then maybe we can build tents and stay there overnight.
(my camp-craft knowledge is of use)..lol
rental of bikes will also be cheaper..hahaha...then can BBQ also..
plus get to see romantic sunset and sunrise! heee..
excited for next outing!!! PAINTBALL outing!!!
so excited!!

And... tml got to wake up early..
there's a pile of things for me to settle!
need to get everything done before flying to taiwan!!!
plus tml need to go school training.... one man show? hmm..

AIM: 1.settle all supporting documents by tml!

STATUS: so enthusiastic to try out more new activites!!! esp SPORTS!!!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Thursday, March 19, 2009

so many admin things to do these days...
especially doing those draggy irritataing applications...
arhh.. all the study loans, scholorships and things have to settle..
its such a headache especially if asked to write essays...
sigh, now im not even halfway done yet...
there's abit of indecisive still...
somemore coming to apply whatever loans makes me a gundu...
need help!!!! ahhh...

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

now its 9.11am.
i should be continuoing my sleep now since i've just quit but i think i have got used to the daily routine of waking up early, despite having to sleep late the previous night.
to rush out long commands for my SNCOs to be.

haha... its worth to wake up early to find out things that i was hoping to see...
now the question is should i be the initiative one? hmmm....

anyway was talking about motivation with a friend yesterday.
should we make ppl out as our motivation?
in other words, doing for the sake of the person...
well, i think thats nothing wrong with it, as long as it works...
and...
of coz as long as it makes you happy as well...
human are still human...
everyone needs motivation to have the drive to carry on and do much better...
well, be it a person or something or even yourself as a motivator.....

so, i guess i have found mine...
this time he has not only motivates me in an aspect but all aspects.
including how colourful do i want my life to be.
leading my life to its fullest fulfilment.
regardless if its a day or year or even a decade and century.....

ok, thats it about motivation...
im gonna have sakura for lunch later... gonna show alot of pics... hahaha...

Sunday, March 15, 2009

today is another day coming to an end.
but i had an enjoyable day kayaking...
today, i finally completed my 2 star kayaking and has successfully passed.
congrats to those who passed as well..
those did not pass, its alright.
there's a second chance. Do your best!
supposedly, i ought to be happy.
but i dont seem to be.
its quite contradicting somehow.
was actually very happy this morning as was under him again after we were splitted into 2 grps.
i was wondering again...
lol... also adsorb better under his coaching.
however, after the rescue of swimmers, he left us and help the other batch of ppl, lack of coaches i think.
then for the rest of the day never see him.... until saw him again on and off...
but too bad before even going home, didnt get to thanks or talk or take photo with him....
was quite disappointing...
those have to come back again for a second chance will probably get to see him again....
i don have the chance...
sob sob....
i think will really miss him and kayaking lotz...
hmmm... im thinking to carrying on my personal skills course or even taking up coaching...see how it goes...
if i have the another chance to see him again, i guess i will really take the initiative to chat...
many things are so unpredictable...i guess he has already melt an iceberg which was frozen many year ago....

Saturday, March 14, 2009

on thursday,
jie vee and her sis came to my shop...
so shock but happy to see them..
then we chat for a while and they kept disturbing me , especially her sis....
after that soon it was dinner time and they really bought dinner for me...
didnt really expected it.
was touched... heh heh...
lets meet up soon... BBQ is coming.. hahaha...

friday was just a boring day....
but i was so exhausted because i didnt sleep well and enough the pass few days which caused me to lay unconscious on the bed for hrs till evening time.
then i did all the housework as i cant stand mess and dust in my room.
might as well, i cleaned the entire hse....
another day just passed....

saturday was the day i been looking forward for throughout the entire week.
was he really my motivation???
i guess so and already begun believe strongly.
i think, i guess, i feel, i realise i have really turn good impression into admiration into a form of liking.
haha... today everything went my way although not the beginning...
been forward to seeing him always..
at any point of time...
at any spot of the sea...
at any time when i kayak...
will always keep a look out for his presence.
ahh..im feeling so lucky and blessed, even we splitted into smaller grps, still got him as my grp coach.
was that coincedence or ...... ( hope its .......)lol..
then after kayaking,
our eye contact of each other are always present... especially the debrief and we formed up and about to leave....
he seems to have many things to say but words just seemed to be stucked in his throat and never came out... but just gave me a smile which has already being hidden and stays in my mind and heart....
same for me.
am still thinking about it even the lesson has ended.
despite the fact that it is a tiring day, i would still hope for tml to come soon but hope the day will move slower.... because i think this will be the last time we meet....
if there's a chance, hope to take a photo with him for momento...lol...

ok, enough elaboration of my wishful thoughts...
today kayaking was indeed fun.
the things taught are interesting today because the focus of today was on how to do various skills with skirt.
it really makes rescue MUCH MUCH MUCH EASIER....
that 1 star rescue cause me to have so many obakak.... argh...somemore its so strenous and tiring...
however , using 2 star rescue with a skirt, one must paddle really fast and steady if not the victim will die of suffocation in the end....
so its really not a laughing matter....
no wonder JB was such a humourous guy changes his face mode suddenly....
lol....
oh ya.. plus we polished our moving inwards skills.
this time seems to be able to adsorb and pick up the skills faster and doing it in a correct and nicer way.
heee =D
what a tiring but truly enjoyable day.
as what JB kept on repeating, " i want u all to get out of this place feeling that you have gain sth and become a more knowlegable and confident person ( feeling superior)".....

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

AAHHHHHHH!!!!!
im feeling so troubled!!!!
im feeling so helpless....
im suffocating....
i dont feel good!!!
i need a counsellor, i guess!
im still blur as ever!
to think nus admission application ends today.
i mistook the dates man!!!
and so in a hurry applied for the courses...
worst of all after applying,
i don feel comfortable at all!!!
im suspecting myself whether i really really really like the course that i always thought/ maybe i really like it.
however, if i really like it, why am i still doubting?
why am i still feeling uncomfortable??? sob....
is it because of pride????.....
i dun know...
what should i do to make myself feel better???
no one can help...
it must be done by my own thoughts.
i need to get through it...
but i just cant...
the more im thinking about it,
i just felt even more uncomfortabe.
its like a De Javu.
i had this uncomfortable feeling when i appled this course in poly initially....
SO, do i really like what i thought i like????
how do i comfirm it???....

~~~~~~ lost mind~~~~~

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

went for 2 star kayaking on sunday.
was tiring not because of the course but was because didnt have enough sleep since my whole week was indeed packed like sardines.
didnt really had the time to really relax myself...
and had to wake up early every morning.
kayaking course was no exception plus even had my few hrs of rest but was not really in deep sleep.
its so suffering, seems to be part of insonmia symptoms.
maybe im feeling troubled throughout the day until i bring those troubles into my slp...
got any solution to this problem??? haish...

anyway back to the kayaking topic.
it was definetly fun!
more fun than first star.
it was just what i felt.
felt more useful as a CLT all of a sudden especially.
learning points are also more interesting, especially those SKILLS to be done independently.
because they seems to be easier ( need lesser force).
plus got good and handsome coach .
so lucky to get him in our grp... lol...
it makes learning easier of coz as well..hohohoho..
also learnt quite alot of geography stuffs from him..
the moon, the earth, the sun... etc.
oh yeah, not forgetting maths and especially many physics terms are also taught...
but got a little mental block when i hear these stuffs. its been like almost half a year ever since i touch theory stuffs. heee.....
but who cares, his the motivation. lol...
and also of coz, everyone was friendly ,helpful and cooperative.
its easy to clique with them =D
so we get things rather quick and its easier to coordinate....
hmmm looking forward to next kayaking lesson
but hate to sunburn!!!!
i put sunblock already lei...
haish....
oh yeah... i have already get rid of the capsize phobea....hahaha......
just rmb dont be TOO precautious and BE calm will do away all odds!
anyway in all gain quite alot eventually....

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Now is 12.06pm.
i have waitied like a donkey years and its just the beginning to thursday afternoon.
im feeling so sian now...
sitting in the shop doing nth but just staring into space.
AND yawning away.
feeling really SIAN!
i really dislike the job to the last level.
just hoping to get out of it asap.
probably thats the reason why i wanna get my results soon.
be it good or bad,
as long as i can get out of " jail", will be good.
just feeling like im being controlled.
my movements are restricted.
cant wait for the day to end and reach tml.
so that i wont have to come and can at least get my back off the weekends as well...
ahhhhh....
its indeed tremendously boring......
thats my feeling and thoughts now, "生不如死 ".....
ppl make thing i 身在福中不知福, now the economy is so bad...
so many unemployed.
hmm... if maybe i become an aunty i will probably this way....
now i can totally understand and agree with the economics saying that i learned before.

Monday, March 02, 2009

im so happy today....
why?
lol....
luckily despite all odds and troubles caused, i still went for the lvl 1 sports climbing.
its all worth it!
i seriously hate "wall" climbing after experiencing the CLT course
as i felt so useless that i couldnt even climb up a single step and could only hand there....
argh!!!
but after today's course,
learning the proper skills and everything,
i climbed 3 walls and belayed 4 times.
thats my first time belaying.
just that beginning belaying got a shock that i almost flew up.
haha....
but just feeling really satsfied that i belayed all 3 diff sizes ppl.. S,M,L
it really gives me the confidence now....
in addition, i initally had the phobea of climbing the wall...
just so afraid that i may not be a ble to perservere and just " fell".
all thanks t so many encouragement that i succeeded!
especially the last wall that i climbed.
in actual fact, i dont intend to do it at all... heh heh....
but luckily i did it!!! successfully somemore eh. haha
hiphip hurray to Porky!!!
" pigs can climb wall arh"... haha...so better watch out.. not only spidermans!
yeah!!! all the way to go..
and also congrats to everyone, we qualified the 1st lvl.
and to those like me , the first timer. =)
ALL THE WAY TO GO!!!
argh! just that my old injuries are back again...
however, at the least it soothens my heart..
it takes away a day of my troubles after having a good sweat, laughter and meeting up with long time no see friends!!!